I wish I never knew you/Fuck you for what you did

Dear First Love,

I gave you everything. I gave up all I had to be with you. My adoptive family loved me and would have given me anything I needed. I lived in the biggest house in town with the richest family who would have given me the world. Yet, I tossed everything aside to struggle through life and college for "true love". You cheated on me with my best friend when I was almost paralyzed from that car accident. Even after I forgave you you kept cheating on me. I hate myself for ever loving you and just wish I could forget you ever existed. I ruined the first part of my life due to loving you. You never even had the decency to tell me why. I know your new love who is twice your age beats the hell out of you. Why did you give up our life to live in squalor and hate? Was I that terrible? I gave you everything I had, heart, soul, and strength. You dashed my very soul upon the rocks. It was the worst pain I have ever felt.

Thanks for Nothing