why is it that I feel this way

Whenever I feel imagine myself as a woman, whenever I picture myself with a vagina, I get this wonderful feeling.. where it should be. It is a different feeling than when I am aroused as a male. It is so much better, and leaves me longing to have a vagina.. and all that goes with it. Why is that feeling of arousal so much more intense ? At times I feel like I could lose my mind to it. What does this mean ? It is just the mere thought of me being female, rarely does anything else trigger it.

Right now I am sitting here dressed as a woman, and pondering my future. The want to dress up and look and feel femine has been increasing much more than it has. I dont mind being male, but sexually, I really want to be female. And I like trying to make myself as femine as possible when I can.

I don't know what the point of this is, I just need to get it off my chest and maybe gain some insight.