I feel lost... I don't know what to do.

A few week's ago I found out I was probably Agender. I learned that genders were different attitudes, behavioral traits, and other sorts of feelings. One of the biggest ones is identifying with the gender. The problem I have is that, in my head, I didn't care. I'm just a living being, living my best life as myself. But, I was amab, and I present very masculine. I think to myself "I'm male in the fact I have male genitals, I have XY chromosomes, and I look like a guy." But then I think of how I'm not male because I don't think of myself as the male gender, just the male sex. I was also raised in a conservative household, where we were taught that sex and gender cannot be changed, and it is about my body and not my thoughts.

I know sexual and romantic attraction are sometimes different, so people use different words for each. Do people do that with gender and sex as well sometimes?

I'm not actually sure what I want anymore. As I'm typing this out, I'm getting more and more confused.

I'm not sure if this is gender dysphoria, but it feels weird. I think I'm partially wishing my genitals would just fall off so I could exist without worrying about them getting in the way. There are some things I wish I could do, but I can't because I'm perceived as male.

This post probably doesn't make any sense, but if you can tell me anything it will help. Any piece of information, even if you think it isn't helpful, it might be just the right thing to help me figure this out. Please don't hesitate to comment