27 f4f self destructive plaything

Why would you take birth control? You like starving yourself, so your period doesn't always happen anyway, and you aren't sure you even want to survive the next nine months anyway.

Maybe you're supposed to be going to college next fall, but all you can seem to imagine doing is being a fucked up toy for some guys at a bonfire on the beach and then, drunk, drugged, and dripping cum, swimming out as far as you can.

Maybe you daydream about finding out you are pregnant, just so you can imagine how much it would fuck up your life. Your body would change and you'd never be able to hide that people were using you.

I want to play with you. Notice I don't say "I want to help you." Neither of us want you helped, do we? We want you pushed. We want you feeling more like a brain dead whore and less like a person. We want you objectifying yourself and any other girl who wanders into your view, and since you're practically hoping to be raped to death, you really do want to think of other girls as objects, don't you?

Let's talk about playing in ways that aren't healthy. Hopefully they're inspiring instead.