BPD vs the world

Does anybody else absolutely struggle with working? Literally anywhere, no matter where I work I always have the worst time coping with meeting new people and being the odd one out. I suffer from social and generalized anxiety on top of a cocktail of other illnesses mixed with the already anxious situation of meeting 20 new people at once by yourself.. it’s crippling. I get this cloud over my entire body, I feel embarrassment literally for no reason but also for every reason my brain tells me I could possibly be embarrassed, my heart RACES, I feel nauseous.. the worst part is what my brain does. It’s so quiet, I have no thoughts, I can’t talk. But at the same time it’s so loud with the very intrusive thought imaginable. I’m numb, but I am in so much pain. I want to quit and never look back after the first hour.

Or is this just me?