I wish I could be more positive.

Everything has started to unravel.

I feel like my home life is decent, but lacking. My work life is sorely lacking. I have been put in a situation I can't win, whilst simultaneously being punished for not winning. I'm not a lad, lad. I never will be. But my peers are, and they bounce off each other and are thick as thieves.

I feel like I'm in a job where he who shouts loudest wins out. I bring a different dynamic to the table. I want my team to be enabled to make their own decisions by nurturing and training.

I'm constantly on the losing side. I try to cover my peer's mistakes and pick up the slack. I do not receive the same courtesy, a mistake that I would cover for them is broadcasted when I make it.

I want to curate a mentality where we succeed as a team, but also fail as a team.

I wish I could be more specific, I wish this made more sense.

I'm feeling very low and want to just explode.