Sometimes I don't even care if people know I'm depressed or that I hate them

I've been hiding it for so long, sometimes I just feel like, maybe I will tell them. But it doesn't help, because anytime I talk about my problems, no one can fix me. I'm broke ass, therapists cost. So I guess I'm just here suffering. I hate it when people say 'you can talk to me' but then when you do, when the trouble is too much, no one tries fixing it.

In other problems... Sometimes when people are like 'why are you mad at me' it's like, what's the point. I tell you what you do wrong, like being nosy, condescending, but you still don't change, why should I bother with you?

I wish it was socially acceptable that I can just tell someone 'look, I don't like you, don't go trying to find me, don't try to talk to me, and we'll have less conflict'. I don't know why it's such a bad thing. Like why is it bad to have someone avoid you????

It feels like people in my family don't actually listen to me. I hear it's common among atheists. Like, cool, you pray all you want, but quit telling me to believe and shit. Then people act confused why we are annoyed being proselytized to all the time. Here's a very simple thing you can do, you either do it or don't be surprised I'm still annoyed.

For the record, annoyance and love can still coexist. I'm annoyed at some family and some I outright hate, but some of them I do love.

I just fucking hate not being respected some of the time.