Very fucking ugly lopsided face [M]

Was 130 kg, decided losing weight cuz I was tired of all the fucking humiliation and body shaming shit I experienced. Now I'm at 85kg, still fucking ugly as ever. What's worse is I cannot focus on my career ( medschool ) anymore cuz no matter how successful I get I'll not be fucking loved by any fucking girl out there. At this point I just want to end everything. End fucking everything and I hope my face gets smashed at my funeral. My face just should not exist it's fucking ugly to be in this world. Tired of punching and fucking slapping myself, idk what I'm gonna do with this fucking face in life. It's all gone. It's all fucking gone. Thanks fucking genetics and God for giving me this ugly fucking face.