Started having mild hallucinations at 13 now five years later their getting worse
Just for context I have not been diagnosed for financial reason and social reasons I keep this to myself but I just wanted to tell my story to see if it fits into the spectrum or if I’m experiencing something else.anyway At 13 i started noticing things it was little things like a hand on my shoulder at night or a person where their wasn’t one at a quick glimpse but nothing to think to much into.but it has gotten worse as I’ve gotten older to the point that sometimes I see people laying next to me in bed not as if they were people more like ”ghosts“ i know their not real but it doesn’t make it any less strange.just last week I had a conversation with Tupac and biggie it sounds weird but being An artist they are relevant to me so maybe my mind made an associate I had a full on conversation by myself,i know it’s in my head but I can fully hear the voices even the way they pronounce things and move their lips Down to choice of words And it only gets worse when intoxicated,when smoking weed I have a repeat hallucination that a group of friends I haven’t spoken to in almost 3 years are looking for me and are mad it’s the same thing each time somebody shouts and suddenly I’m surrounded their in bushes around me hiding I look but can’t see anybody but some how It gets me paranoid every time.it wouldn’t be so hard but if I’m honest I’m involved in “not so good” things and it puts me on edge when in already stressful situations this with my anger issues/easily aggravated personality are a dangerous mix I sometimes hear people shit talking me to my face even though I can see their mouth isn’t moving. But the scariest one for me is theirs a walk way close to my house with trees either side and I can hear the rope creaking for a lack of a better word from the strain of the body’s it’s actually terrifying either side of me I see people hanging from trees and sometimes even people in the bushes waiting,it makes me feel like ants are on my body like adrenaline at all times but it’s hard to talk about as a now 18 year old man in the environment I’m in if I said I see people and get scared of the dark people would laugh but it’s the truth I only fear that it’s getting worse because at this point I’m convinced theirs a whole world where ghosts are following me but can only manifest if I’m scared or angry and so when I see them often as dark shapeless people I simply calm myself down but then my mind creates new rules at this point they can’t touch me if I’m not scared or if In direct light it sounds stupid even typing this out makes me wonder how my mind came up with such shit but i just wanted to share get some thoughts obviously nobody can diagnose over the internet but does this fit within the spectrum?
Posted Jul 1, 2021, 12:23 AM UTC · edited