What more can i do ?

I have an a.a lib arts - background in graphic design fundamentals , i illustrate , self teach through audio sources and video.

I've found myself in a cycle - every issues i have is due to poverty.

I've worked since I was 17 , got a job to help my parents afford rent in 2001 ! then got the diploma , the degree and im 37 still bagging groceries for 9.99 hrly after 5 years+.

I've tried the state - the correctional officers decided to test my ethics and i quit when they put my life in danger by rumors.

I've tried small business they want top of the market skills for 10.00$ without a budget for continuing education on marketing or just for marketing.

I've worked for free a time or two and i hate myself for doing it.

I've done everything , i have no social existence , no kids, no hope and with my parents I declining health this has got to change... my fury boils and rage burns and i can't express it.....

I'm just tired and angry and ....

i haven't lived I've only ever survived, i had a year wherein i actually lost 20% mass because I couldn't buy the volume b of food needed nor spend the fuel back n forth to my parents for leftovers.

I've updated the resume

i have no contacts

my vehicle is dying and needs repairs or replacement but hahaah 6k for a working car is 1/2 ish of my yearly avg. it doesn't help its a 1996 car either.

I've tried e-flipping local economic factors are that in a poor region goods worth flipping are far and few between.

i can't stand or comprehended networking or manipulating others

I'm 2hrs from every major metro region

Florida wages are just poverty or worse

few employers hire full-time in certain industries

i can't say what i want to do as i know more of what i don't want to do and mostly i don't want to ever deal with any more of the general population or customers.

i don't have real time for applied practice as I'm worked just enough to kill the clarity for focus.

I've listened to 2k+ hours or more of podcasts/audiobooks on everything marketing/business/psychology/art and design/Ana biographical content.

the only lesson i observed was 2 fold

1. 99.98% had help usually a friend or family let them live rent free no b.s job while they skill developed
2. they did have work ethic.

every job lists these unicorn demands on entry lvl positions that they're basically trying to under pay skilled workers and the starting is still way below cost for a clean/safe/dignified 1bd apt solo, not counting food/living.

then the question is what's the point of a over glorified storage shed it would be cheaper to sleep at work being as they already get to eat 80% of my day and week if they hire you full-time. then you gotta do all the self care/cleaning/laundry/dishes ect...

I'm at a point of intense calm ire and need to find a path into a white collar living wage job that uses actual critical thinking and isn't selling people creep they don't need!