Stuck in church.

Hi, this the this first post I will have ever made and I'm still not sure if I should post it and how to word this, but a bit of community might help a bit.

I started to type this out long and storied, but for your personal sanity I cut it all out lol. To start, I'm 16 and I've been forced to go to a deep-south baptist church since I was born, I mean I'm literally sitting here writing this in church right now. I always hated it deep down even when I was indoctrinated heavily, it always made me miserable and panicky. From a young age I found out I was bisexual and started questioning my belief, the cruelty and the hypocrisy was impassible. So so many faults and terrible things, right under my nose my whole life. My whole family loves this dictator narcissist god more than anything and anyone, and they all know I'm gay and unreligious now, it was tender for a long time but now nobody talks about it and it's pretty nice for me, but the thing is that even since I came out and told them I'm not into this anymore, I still have to go to church.. I know it's not surprising and I'm not special in this, but it's so hard to look ahead and see the rest of my childhood in this place three times a week, when I think about it too long it makes me want to end it honestly, idk just needed to rant a bit. I've tried talking to my mom about it but she won't even consider it for a second, so it's out of question really on that. Thanks for reading :)