A letter to the person I love

In the short month that I got to know you, I fell deeply and utterly in love with you. The way you were, the way you made me feel, the way I could be myself around you. I think about you the whole day, and it pains me that you’re not here. I fought for you even though you shut me out every chance you got. I was by your side through this rough time you were going through. It just wasn’t enough to make you stay. You seem happier now, it could all be facade, but I’m a mess, I can’t even pretend to be happy. I wonder if you are happier now that you don’t have me, trying to show you I did love you. It was just easier for you to leave and not fight. It pains me because I thought you felt the same way, but I would never just up and leave with trying to work things out. I get it, I fucked up, but so did you and I forgave you. I’ll get over you, but for now you’ll be on my mind most of the day. Im not mad that you left, I’m just in shock. If you decide to come back, I’ll be here. I just don’t know which version you will get. If the one who loves you unconditionally or the one who doesn’t care if you leave again.