Tomorrow I'll restart my taper! I wanna want to live. Took 20mg of xanax today

I'm taking 14mg of xanax a day for 4 months now

The only days I take only 2mg or 4mg is when I drink a few beers.

I wanna stop. I wanna live. Im getrimg worse. Took 20mg today (pharma)

Rehab is not an option

I made a chart I pretend to stard tomorrow with 6mg or 8mg depending on how it goes. 2 months to lower my intake to 3mg a day.

I need some hope.