Note to Self

Hi guys, I'm writing this today because I have no one to share this with, fapping from the start has had such a large impact on my life. In my 11 and 12 grade I was a good fun loving cheerful guy and used to wank very rarely so it dint affect me much. But after my 12th my frequency increased this reduced my confidence and was unable to make friends in college. Because of not being able to make friends I used to skip lunches as I had no one to eat with and I thought eating alone would make you look like a loser. From there I started losing weight and little did I realise the reason of people being away from me was my continuous fapping and brain fog. I still continued fapping and I got skin problems like spots on my back ( not completely sure if fapping caused it, but it definitely has some role), suicidal thoughts came daily but luckily I had my cousin brother who used to motivate me to live. Today trying after multiple times I am on Day 2 and believe me guys don't repeat the same mistakes I did. Fapping will rob your joy you happiness and your mindfulness. You got one life, the main reason for semen is for procreation and not depletion. Think smart cheers