My 40 year old halfbrother ruined my life by texting me.

I had just turned 18 last year. My halfbrother had a wife, and a new baby, my niece. I loved her as long and as much as I could for. My brother had just gotten back into my life when I was 12, he even moved in with his wife during that time while their house was being built, for over a year. I loved him and I trusted him.

When this whole pandemic started, my family had been isolated away for a month past my birthday. I got a text from him, saying he had a 'dream about me'. He asked me if I dreamt about him, and I told him no. He said that "I can't tell you about my dream, it was hot". He also said he dreamt of me without my clothes on.

I can't get it out of my head. I can't stop thinking about it. He never apologized to me, he never told me he didn't mean what he said to me. He twisted up every good memory we had together and ruined it. It makes me feel gross and creeped out every day. I found myself scared of men close to me in my life, still afraid they're going to hurt me in a similar fashion, or that they're secretly thinking lewd things about me.