I don't think she has ever care about my emotion.

I took good care of her emotion, but she never care about mine. It has been one year, Everytime I need some comforting words, she just changed topic instantly, or even make it worse some time, also she is toxic AF when playing video game, and she will never admit that she was wrong, I apologize everytime, even when I'm having bad mood, it's my fault, sorry for low effort post, I'm exhausted, I don't know what to do, I still love her, but I don't feel like I'm loved.