shadow work

hi guys, sorry if you see this twice, posting it on two forums.

but anyway, most of you are probably familiar with the law of attraction, something i believe to be true as i have used it on several occasions, but haphazardly; i'm trying to learn to manifest more controlled and in more areas of my life (physically, emotionally and spiritually). i've noticed whenever i come to live my life having already got what i desire, eg live as if i'm in my dream body and choose to completely love myself, i come to hit the same mental block every time. i think i need to overcome it.

so i wrote it down.. 'i'm insecure about my eating habits. i'm lonely, my reaction to my body creates feelings that i'm so alone, so wrong. the way i look different to others strikes thoughts that i'm less worthy, less lovable to me and others. i feel like in order to be loved, to be a 'good person' and be healthy (and therefore happy) i have to workout, eat clean and meditate. but my ego tells me this. and so nothing is ever enough. it will consume me.'

i see a therapist, but it's a couple days till i see her again, and also, i like the wide range of advice i can sort through.

does anybody know how i can overcome this block and truly live as if all my dreams are here right now? thank you! love ♡