Anyone else more anxious than excited?

I always thought I was going to be absolutely ecstatic when planning for the wedding. Instead, I feel like an anxious mess. I think my family and friends think i'm very calm and composed, but I think I feel a little [both] underwhelmed and overwhelmed.

I think it's because I have a fear of how big it all will be [creating a dance floor outdoors, decorating, deciding on a date a year in advance, paying people with the little money I have?] Why is it all adding up sooo quickly?! And underwhelmed because I haven't actually booked anything ... yet.

I guess it's a good thing I have a 'full' year to plan it all out, along with this subreddit to help with it all.

Thanks for listening!