Struggling

Day 40 something

My boyfriend is breaking my heart today

He has no time to followup with finalizing his divorce from his nasty wife even though he already missed the deadline he swore he wouldn’t miss

But he has enough time to spend an hour on FaceTime with her helping her troubleshoot some stupid fucking Internet problem and doesn’t even walk the dog when he’s supposed to so I just did

And he’s still on the FaceTime with her nasty self

I feel like I’m going to break

I want to leave and go out i am sick of hearing him talk to her but if I go out I know I will drink

Please give me the reminders I need right now please please

And yes I know I need to end it with him no comments requested on that right now please