Nobody warns you that depression makes you an awful person to be around

I didn’t even realise it myself until I took 2 tabs of acid and could look in at my life from an outside perspective, I’m awful to be around. I suck the energy out of every situation, I’m no fun, I’m never in the mood for laughing because I just constantly feel like crying. I’m like a black hole that sucks all the fun away and everyone on the outside just sees someone who’s constantly in a bad mood, there goes any chance of potential new friends approaching me. I wondered why people leave you during depression but I got it after that, I wouldn’t want to be around me either.