32 Days.. pissed off, depressed..

I've got 32 days sober... I really dont know how I did it, woo hoo- whatever, I guess. I dunno. I know that it is a big deal, I am just in a really shitty mood at the moment, and I have been for a while. I'm on a company sponsored trip to a vacation resort, where everyone is drinking- I have let some 12-step friendly people know where I am at with everything so I have some people to be accountable to-- and I dont really have the urge to drink.. but I'm pissed off at everything.. I'm miserable, I'm not enjoying myself, I'm not having fun being sober-- I dont really have any desire (right now) to be blackout drunk like I know I would get if I picked up a drink... but I do feel pretty fucking pissed off at everyone and everything right now.. I feel miserable, and feel like a miserable person.. I have had lots of fun at this event every year (from what I remember anyway).. the past few years I've gotten blackout drunk, ended up at the casino and somehow made it back to the hotel with a little more money than I showed up with (I have no recollection of the sort), made a complete fool out of myself, and left with a slight feeling of embarrassment- but at least I wasn't as miserable as I am right now.

Maybe it is just that I have a month sober, I dont know.. but I'm not feeling this right now. I'm not feeling shit, I'm hiding out in my fucking hotel room right now, wanting to stay away from everyone who is out doing whatever the hell they are doing.

I just needed to vent..

(not really sure why my badge reads 31, but whatevs)