I can't ever relax or feel okay, what is wrong with me?

I get really uncomfortable and depressed when I'm not actually working on something. I can't just sit and watch TV or do simple things. I always need to be doing something productive. I just can't sit still and read or watch something or play a game for too long. I get irritated and have to work of something.

The problem comes that I'm not a get out kind of person and I don't have anything to do especially on weekends. I have no friends and don't know how to make them. I have nothing really in my life and I despise every minute.

This leads me to times like now where i just feel nothing and just sit and hate everything. I can't even feel enough to feel suicidal as I sometimes have been in the past. Maybe it's because I know I actually have a decent thing going for me now. I just hate my life completely and don't know what to do. I'm messed up and don't know where to turn.