We met on the internet and I "thought" we have a long distance relationship ...

Over a year ago I met someone very special on the internet, and once we started writing it was a like a non-stop flood of e-mails. To make things short, we first met in October 2011 and the second time at Christmas.

Though we are very different persons (eg he has a super hard time in showing feelings and I am quite the opposite) we could never let go of each other, it seems like there is some magic strand that is holding us together. Often I just want to shoot his ass to the moon but at the same time I wish we could be together forever. O_o

In a very few moments he confessed his love to me and also told me about how he wishes we will have a future together. As I know how hard it is for him to show feelings, this all made me really happy and approved what I was thinking: that we are a team and could really make it one day!

A few weeks ago I had a strange feeling. Funny how I can smell shit a thousand miles ago. I asked him whether he betrayed on me and he immediately admitted it. My heart was broken. And still is.

He said he was "alone" and she made him "feel well" (what the fuck!?) and he was an idiot at the same time for doing it. It only happened once and he had never seen her again.

What shall I do? On the one hand I know he really likes me, he writes me every morning at work and we are in contact literally all day long. After he broke my heart so badly, he told me things that I had never expected from him. Like I am his dream woman and that he also feels that we are the perfect team and that he always wished that we would grow old together, ...

How can you say these things on the one hand, yet betray on the other hand? It makes no sense to me :( I just don't know what to do. My heart is still broken and I can't trust him anymore. I feel disgusted. At the same time it is so hard to NOT talk to him as he is reaching out for me all the time.

Seriously people, once a cheater always a cheater??