How can I stop obsessing about love?

(I'm sorry if this is the wrong place to post) I am a 22 year old black female from England and I have never been kissed, never had sex, never held hands with a boy, never had anyone like me in that way. Im tired now of waiting and questioning why ( I'm an atheist by the way so me not doing any of those things isn't down to religious oppression) Its really torn me up inside for many many years and I am tired of hating people in love or in a relationship, im tired of waiting for my first time in anything. So that's it im closing my doors i cant wait anymore I just wont bother with a relationship from now on. A few months back i remember truly not caring anymore and that I would be happy for the rest of my life if i never met anyone because no one wants me and I felt peace and a calm settling over me like never before unfortunately my feelings of wanting to be in a relationship and having my first anything came rushing back and i just fell like im being crushed inside. I don't want to be told it gets better or I'll meet someone. I know i wont if it hasn't happened by now it will never ever ever happen. It isn't cute anymore to be the girl that has yet to reach first base at my age its just creepy and I give up,If for some reason the fates have decided that i am to be one of those people who end up with no one then so be it I cant take it anymore I have to think of my sanity. Just tell me how to suppress those thoughts and feelings of wanting to be in a relationship so i can get on with my life.

Thank you for your time

TL,DR- I have had it with nothing happening to me tell me how to suppress the feelings of wanting to be in a relationship so I can finally have peace of mind