I just broke up with my boyfriend I am still in love with.... I Need advice I feel like shit...... what should I do?

He is my first love, I am 21F and he is M22. We have been going out for a little over a year but being realistic we have probably fought over have the time we have been together. I love him so much and this is the hardest thing I have ever done, I have been a mess these past two days. I broke up with him because we just don't see relationships the same way. I always travel and drive to see him whether it be 20 minutes to his house or 45 minutes to his school. He doesn't like to travel, he says it has nothing to do with me. He says he enjoys just loving me and knowing i love him back but that is not enough for me. I want him to want to visit me and come to me. I hate being at school and he is just at school playing video games. It makes me feel like I am not good enough. He has told me this is who he is and I either have to accept it or not. So finally today I ended it. I didn't want to, it was over the phone and I think he was upset. I just want him to show up at my door step right now. I want him to drive to me and say he doesn't want to lose me. I have been crying non-stop, he told me he will have his phone on him if I want to talk. I want to call him I want to but I want him to realize that he doesn't want this to end and he will try. I feel that I put 95% effort into relationship. I love him so much this is hurting so badly. I wish he would just show up at my door step but i don't think he will. How do I deal with this? Am i doing the right thing? What are the rules? can I call him? I hate this, last night was the first night we went without saying I love you and not texting or talking it is just so hard. I love him so fucking much but we keep fighting over and over. How do you break up with someone your in love with and thought you were going to spend the rest of your life with. I feel broken.