Don't read this

I just need to get this off of my chest. For some reason in the past week I have been getting the most insane cravings for old images I used to fap to. A wet dream last night involving these same fantasies gave me a huge chaser effect today. There was a moment where I felt like I had no other option but to look at these pics that were searing themselves into my mind and dreams all week. When I finally caved and looked, I didn't even find them sexy. I edged a little bit but it was nothing like how I used to fap. It just wasn't the same.

It's weird because at this point the cravings are still there but when I finally do look at the pics and edge, it doesn't even feel good. The temptation that I fell to was more of the search for the porn than the porn itself.

I just wanted to get this off of my conscience. This was the closest I have been to failing since I began this 48 days. I felt terrible for caving in that 10 minutes but to know that porn doesn't even do it for me anymore is a small comfort.