It comes and goes in waves

I was considering getting a therapist for my BDD specifically but recently I haven’t been feeling as bad as usual.

Two days ago I even started coming up with mental exercises I can do when I feel an episode coming on and thought, hey maybe I don’t need that therapist, this actually feels good and I’m confident I can get back up if I fall again.

But 1 little social media trigger of a gorgeous girl who I then hate stalked for 30 minutes, and I’m back to where I started. Back to feeling like I’m 12 ft deep in a ditch with no way to climb out by myself. Not even doing the exercises I came up with. It feels pointless.

Does this happen to anyone else? When I’m good I don’t obsess too much, but every few days it gets really bad all over again. How do you deal?