I was diagnosed with “Schizophrenia”

I first had a psychosis induced by weed and shrooms. Got put on a tonne of meds, olanzapine, respiridone, quetiapine.

Felt like a zombie and put on a tonne of weight, was gaslit and abused by some of the nurses and most of the psychiatrists in the ward.

Mostly recovered when I was coerced into taking an SSRI (sertraline) which then caused another psychosis and I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I put on 30kg.

More meds etc, now I’m on a 3 month dose of paliperidone, have been stable for 8-9months.

Want to get off but they’re super rude and manipulative.

Thoughts?

PS. I have never hallucinated auditory or visual. Only experienced delusions of grandeur and spirituality, started going to church.