I can’t last more than a few minutes.

My entire sex life, all of the sexual relationships I have ever had, I have rarely been able to last in bed for more than a few minutes. If I were to attempt to fuck without holding back, or if I were to allow a woman to ride me on her terms it would be mere seconds.

I have dealt with a severe insecurity about this forever. However, after living as a cuckold to my wife for a handful of years, I am no longer insecure. In fact, I’ve accepted it, and no longer try to see myself as someone who will one day be able to FUCK. That feeling is very liberating. Even though my wife no longer cucks me, I think she has finally accepted my shortcomings as well. The only way my wife and I can have sex for extended periods of time is if I am on top and I move incredibly slow. Like, very slow. I can speed up for very short bursts, but usually have to stop and give myself a rest before I can resume my slow pace. This used to really upset my wife. My wife cucked me for many years, and it was such a pleasure watching her remember what it was like to actually have sex, to actually be fucked the way she deserves. It’s actually a lot of fun, comparing videos I took of us having sex vs videos of her with other men. You can see the boredom through her body language, even annoyance at times. While videos I have of her with other men, you can actually hear her moan, and see her body writhe with pleasure. We no longer participate in that lifestyle, and that’s okay. Actually, the chemistry between us is really cute now. She knows what I am capable of, and no longer has failed expectations. Those moments where I can fuck her hard for 2-3 pumps, she moans so hard. And then when I have to stop immediately after that, I smile to myself knowing my wife is stuck with a man who will only be able to pleasure her on such shallow mediocre levels. She knows she’s only allowed to ride me if she’s ready for my cum immediately after, and she know longer gets mad at me for exploding like the pathetic cuck that I am. She knows who she’s married to, and that there’s nothing I can do to change that. Can I ask, for anybody reading this, what’s it like being able to fuck women? Don’t get me wrong. My wife and I have had very good sex in the past. But lightening rarely strikes twice, and the moment I realized that I stopped hating myself. I actually feel really good about it, I’m okay with who I am :)