I don't know if this is okay but, I've never spoken to someone who has what I have... I've been having a terrible year I'm having through holding back tears on my speech to text currently....

I am a 37 year old male. Been the problem crazy child my whole life was finally put on medication in high school.... been through offs and ons, until I got married. It was when we had our first son. I was struggling and I knew I needed to get back on my medications to do the best that I could in life and provide.

That was when I was 26 years old. I turned 37 last month. The pediatrician has decided that my first son had adhd when he was 3 almost 4 years old.

I don't want to get into all the details but to see the memory of your own experience and to actually have not only the empathy but the solid 100% CERTAINTY, that you know exactly how he feels and that he does not understand a goddamn thing that's going through, other than that he is "different" and the "different" is usually also called a problem aka... They end up thinking "am i the problem, am I a PROBLEM!?! " , something's wrong with them and people are getting mad at him and upset with him all the time...

I don't know I just feel like if I could talk to someone my age maybe in a very similar situation not necessarily and unsuccessful situation like mine but... I have a spouse who decided to change tremendously and on top of Breaking My Heart is not doing any favors for children or understanding of my oldest in any way.

And I'm not looking for answers to that problem I just need a break I have spent so many nights talking to myself crying to myself I don't know what else to do I have no one else to tell in the one person that is supposed to believe in trust and care for me does not give a shit