Story Of A Grey Acid Wave. Part 15. The End… What LSD Has Taught Me In Life. Thank You r/Acid & r/LSD.

How to even start this…

I guess I’ll start by saying thank you to r/acid and r/lsd for being here to post all my trip reports on. And this ending bit. And big ass thank you to anyone who had read the trip reports or this ending part.

Right now it’s March 2022, I’m currently 21. I’ll be 22 in June. Born with autism and having a harsh teen hood all I can think is how LSD saved me from self destruction both physically and mentally…

At 15 to 17, just before 18 I faced suicidal thoughts, very bad depression, felt utterly hopeless in life but changed my life before 18. For myself and those I love. Got better mentally and physically then got my first job at 19, worked it till almost 20 and after losing my job had just enough money for a sheet of acid. Before the summer of 2020 I had two small acid trips under my belt 120ug/25mg MDMA, 150/180ug. Then had my first real trip in August after getting the sheet, I had spit it with friends and had 40 tabs for myself. This is when I’d say the acid wave started. During this acid wave I would face self harm, complex ptsd, lost of a loved one, but would gain a perspective on life that would save my life…

My first real acid trip being my 3rd time, 3 gel tabs(150ug each) 450ug-I got my ass kicked to say the least and my world rocked as I underwent my first real deal psychedelic experience, my biggest thought during the trip was “THIS IS THE HIGHEST IVE EVER BEEN IN MY LIFE” it was such amazing time.

My 4th trip was the same dose but less intense and was during a sunrise morning. Also very good time.

Then my 5th trip…675ug with dabs. I might as well been on a decent dose of DMT for 5 hours straight because that’s how it felt looking back on it. The peak was my soul leaving my body and going into space… was not ready for the trip but nevertheless loved how perfect it was.

6th trip-550ug movie night, watching Fear in Loathing in Las Vegas plus other movies very intense trip, very good time.

7th trip-500ug with dab pen out in pitch black woods with a sunrise come down. Also very intense trip, didn’t get comfortable till the come down though.

8th to 12th trip-Low dose testing that did a number on my mental health in all honesty…

13th trip-One of my best trips without a doubt, Done on 2021 new year’s. 7 tabs-1050ug. Very very intense trip, almost had a pure ego death, tripped for 8+ hours.

14th trip-300ug after a horrible lost in life, my grand dad who gave me the set and sitting for the last trip. It’s thx to a house sitting I did for him, thx to him and his house I had a perfect trip… this trip helped me greatly mentally in dealing with the lost of a loved one.

15th trip-150ug with a weed gummie, first time doing a combo of the two.

16th and 17th-Did trips with my one of best friend’s. One night both of us on 300ug then next a candy flip of 300ug and 150mg of MDMA. It was good ass time but the after glow was horrible, I fell into a horrible MDMA depression for a good little while.(ps this trip was done with new acid, paper tabs 250-300ug)

18th trip-Much like when I was turning 18 this trip changed me for the better mentally, stopped using self harm so often after it. I also decided just how many trips I wanted to do with LSD. 21 trips because I’d be turning 21 for 2021. This trip was 600ug in some woods with sunrise, it was a nice and chill time.

19th trip-600ug (paper and gel) and 150mg of MDMA, with 40mg of thc on come down. Did the trip in the 2021 summer for my b day. Also had done my 2nd shroom trip the day before, and decided I’d be switching over to shrooms after my 21st acid trip.

20th trip-620ug (last of gel) with 150mg of thc then 200ug(paper) redose, lots of weed smoke was involved too.(Blunts,bowls,pen,wax blunts) What I’d call my 2nd LSD breakthrough, that 5th trip was my 1st breakthrough. I had visuals that were 3rd eye opening, things could be seen with different dimensions to them. The body high was intense just as the visuals. The redose half wasn’t so good as my friend who dropped with me had a bad time. Besides that still one of my strongest acid trips to date, not as strong as my 5th but stronger then my 13th.

21st trip-Underwhelming trip, that involved a huge waste of tabs. It was a movie night, with a original dose of 600ug(paper) however earlier that day I had done my 3rd shroom trip with my best friend. 3.5 of enigma shrooms. The visuals for that trip were strong and so a cross tolerance had messed up my 21st acid trip. I wasted 1,800ug that night and some shrooms and barely got any visuals. I could’ve redone the trip and called that my 21st but I wouldn’t have felt right. And so I learned one of the last lessons from LSD with that trip, take things slow. Don’t rush stuff in life, despite this lesson being learned I still would rush some things in life down the road, but nowadays I try to keep things smooth sailing.

Honestly it took a while to get the wisdom I have from LSD, before acid I did have some wisdom but the trips hardened that wisdom. LSD made me realize just how perfect this life and the world truly is. It wasn’t till after I stop dropping so much and started coming into a new year with different psychedelics (Shrooms and Lsa) that I see just how great life is, no matter the situation or moment. Because in this life there is balance, good vs bad, war vs peace, love vs hate, etc etc. So you’ll get hit with both, and can’t control witch will come or when.. but u can control how u look at it/deal with it.

During the acid wave I couldn’t see this.. all I could think about was the next trip, “what answers will I find? Will I find the peace I seek?” I believe there were few times acid gave me true peace within my mind, the afterglow for many trips would leave me feeling hopeless due to facing complex ptsd(didn’t know it was ptsd till 2021 summer) I did some research on how I was feeling and came to the conclusion it has to be complex ptsd. I have also come to a conclusion that acid doesn’t help the attacks but rather makes them harder to deal with. Where as with shrooms on the another hand, they do give me peace of mind, and for quite some time too. These attacks would lead me to use self harm, cutting myself often with a razor blade… it would release dopamine. The scars remain, but so does my wisdom. As well as the memories of all my amazing acid trips… my first 21 trips.

I dropped, I seen, I flew, I felt, I know… All that I needed from the wave and from life was necessary for my strength and wisdom. I do believe in a creator, and a afterlife. But what I know more then anything is to give love and peace to all and to myself.

This is what LSD has taught me in life.

Much Love N Peace To All-Yung Grey Hippie

P.S- My 22nd acid trip will be a ridiculous dose and it’ll be for my 22nd B-day. 10/11 tabs of the paper tabs=3,000ug. As to why… one it’ll be my first 10 strip, two I wanna take the dose duke did in Fear In Loathing In Las Vegas. Trip sitters and trip killers will be on stand by… u only get one life, don’t rush it but do make it count ;)