angry, just angry

when does the anger go, when does anything seem to change for anyone around here, when do I stop thinking about their voice comforting me in my head, or thinking I'll see them on the weekend, and wanting to text and speak to them.

nothing fills the void like they use too, I don't wanna be alone but to grow I know I have to be alone. some days are better then others but I've been putting off everything just to be okay

I have so much to do and so much love to give them and I'm an idiot for doing what I done, and thinking what I thought. I just beat myself up about it and still really really love her even though she's done things with guys not long after we were broken up, it fucking sucks. maybe I'm just venting idk