Mind over analyzing our final text exchange with me? I broke contact and I’m freaking out.

***This is after we had a 2 hour long conversation/breakup full of tears on both ends and a LOT of “I love you, and I only want to be with you and I don’t want this for us but we need this space for our mental wellness. (Not wrong) You’re the closest person to me and still my best friend, I hope we can still talk at least .” (To which I said I’d prefer to go 100% no contact for at least a month because my emotions are high and I’m impulsive and talking to him won’t help me heal)

Me: “ I hope you got home safe. I love you and I hope you can find yourself and the answers that you need in life. I’ll talk to you in a month “

Him: “Thank you I did:) I love you too and I hope we can both put in the work we need to and come out on top. I’ll talk to you soon.”

That sounds like there’s an end goal to get back together, right? (Even though in person he said he can’t guarantee anything and just wants me to focus on me and what’s best for me. )

It’s only been a week. And I’m…weak. Yesterday, I dmed him on instagram to congratulate him on getting his diploma (Which I found out by stalking his snapchat, an app he knows I never use.) He hasn’t replied. Now I feel like I am going to spiral and I feel like he hates me and isn’t even my friend anymore. But logically, I know we both need space. Idk. I’m panicking, sad, and alone, so I’m posting here.