Want to get back to my older self

5 years ago I had a strong goal and lots of smaller ones. I had a plan and support from my close ones. I chased after them and gave it 110% No resting, no excuses, leaving nothing for later and giving up on nothing. And I made it. I achieved my goals. I proved everyone close to me that I can achieve anything I set my mind to just like they kept telling me and I earned their trust. I learned my limits and how strong I can be mentally. Full self control. After that life changed. Lots of new situations. I was confused and without experience and most importantly alone. I think I know what the new big goal is but not sure how to Chace it. I will need to get back to my older self. My 110% one. Strong will. Self control. Or maybe I need a plan first. Or both.

Damn I wasted so much time. P. S. wtf is even my porpuse.

*just a vent post