Jobs and masking??

But it’s not masking.

I have a new job and I’ve had two customer service jobs before. So talking to customers comes easy to me, I get nervous but in the moment I just take over. It’s like a completely happy nice and funny cheerful me that forces itself out, to make sure I’m extra nice I guess? Sometimes it can go too far and afterwards I’m just like hm… i hate myself. Especially when you accidentally just like blurt out something really weird or weird to them at least and 100% normal to you, people are just rude and weird themselves and I’m learning to just not care at all and be whatever, do whatever. But still, it’s like a hyper me comes out and dies straight after.