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why can't we just be simple creatures. having complex thoughts, emotions, reassurance ect. it's exhausting, it really is. I don't even know my emotion, how do you express sick complicated things. how do you make them understand what your thinking. I don't know how to react to a simple thought. I need help but I don't know how to receive it. I'm in a relationship and I still don't know how to properly express a thought or even a emotion. I'm 19 still feeling like a kid. I don't want to be a kid. I want to be independent. I don't want someone's reassurance to help. I don't know anymore, at this point I might as well just...yeah. if this person sees this just know I'll always love you, your the best person to ever come into my life, I don't want to lose you. I never want to lose someone who actually makes me happy in my life. So please understand that what I. Trying to say I'd that I need help, but I don't know what kind of help. Just promise you'll always be there next to me. Promise you'll understand. I never thought of the day where we turn each other backs to another. To be strangers, like we never met each other in this world. I want to stay in your life as much as you want me In yours. I love you