i don’t want a future

like i can imagine my friends and family all grown up following their dreams and ambitions, forming a family and whatnot meanwhile i genuinely can’t see a future for myself, not because “the future is scary” but because i don’t have any ambitions or goals or anything, it’s all gone i’m in college now doing god knows what for some degree that i don’t care about for a major that i don’t care about i don’t want a relationship cause i have nothing to offer and much less a child i guess it also has to do with the fact that i’ve been passively suicidal for years, so i always figured i would die anytime soon by my own hand

there’s not really any point in writing this, just needed to vent thanks for reading