POCD - Makes me so confused on what is the truth

Like I feel like I’m checking out little kids like I would check out a woman. Getting urges to look at them like I’m freaking checking them out. I don’t want to have sex with a kid. I don’t understand why my brain keeps triggering me to look at them. I feel like I notice every kid now when I’m out etc. this is so confusing to me. By far the hardest theme I’ve ever dealt with. Before I had OCD I never had any thoughts or urges like this. Sometimes it feels like I’m actually attracted to them, but upon review it’s like it’s just a kid, I’m not interested.

I don’t know what to do. I wish this stuff would just leave me alone. I’m 36 and all of a sudden have questions about if I’m into kids. This is horrible.