I need help

I just hit a six day streak last Thursday, relapsed Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Today was day two of a new streak and I gave in. I was dumb and kept looking for stuff, actively watching porn and thinking of it more as a challenge rather than a trigger.

I need help brothers and sisters. I don’t want to keep going. I wanna give in and go back to being addicted and not caring, it would be so much easier. Please help