My husband passed away and I'm finding he lived a double life

How do you move on from something like this? We were together 20 years. I'm 39 years old. I have lost my husband. Now I'm cleaning up and finding drugs, sex toys and let's not even get into the phone. I had no idea. I work a lot which he pushed me into the promotion but FFS this shit hurts. Now I have no time to meet other people and I'm do broken.