Baseball

Your a sports guy. So I thought Id put this terms you'd understand.

I made myself comparisons. It wasn't nice of me to do that to myself. It only fed my insecurities. Made me feel small.

The differences were obvious.

Strike 1. Age gap. Even if most days I feel and act like I'm much younger the truth of the matter is I'm not. It hasn't really made a difference but it is something I'm aware of. But like winter boots in the summer, I shove them away in the back of my closet where I don't see them. Out of sight out of mind.

Strike 2. You have someone who is absolutely best at your side. Younger than you, looks perfect in every way. I know looks aren't everything. But she seems like the whole package. Yet I know appearances aren't everything.

Strike 3. Me not giving you or I enough credit. I didn't believe you would ever be interested in me as more than a friend for the long haul. Or over haul or short haul. I thought you liked our time and it was a nice escape for you.again with the insecurities right? Enough already. I gave parts but not all. I held back. Instead of trusting words and feelings I used my body to convey how I felt and what I wanted and who I loved. You. No excuse or reasons I can only refer you back to strike 1 & 2.