I feel like the relationships you cared the most about are the ones you mess up

It’s kinda a lame life fact. As I’ve grown I’ve gradually become less and less invested in the relationships I have. Probably because I’ve learned to do so. I was very romantic when I was younger. Felt like things were fated to be etc. This made those relationships feel so important. But it also made me come on too strong I guess and brought them to an end. Or I was so in my head I never had the nerve to try to take things to the next level. I’ve kinda been a slow learner in this way. I really think my social development lagged behind what was normal for my age. Not bad, I’ve been functional, but it was a noticeable thing. I think that’s made this progression very noticeable though. My friendships are still warm and pleasant but they aren’t as intense as I wanted them to be when I was younger. Maybe my expectations were just unreasonable and it’s not anything to dwell on I guess. I guess I’m worried everything will be boring af though when I’m in my 50s or so