Advice

I'm very sorry for bothering you with this post, i do not deserve any help, so feel free to read another one, if you want to go on, this post might be triggering, because i am suicidal, please please do not read on, if that might be a trigger to you.

I honestly feel completely hopeless, my situation is quiet bad, but i don't want to bore you with it, i have a plan how i want to finally die, but i am unsure when to do it. I know that basically none of my "friends" will care, neither will my family, i want to stopp being such a burden to them. But i have that one friend, who just might care, they told me, that they are worried about me and while i am not sure if i should believe them, i do not want to hurt them, or anyone else. I would like to ask you, if you think that i should tell them before i go, or if i should write a letter and make sure they get it once i am gone? I would greatly appreciate any help or advice, but if you can't help me, or don't believe me, that's totally fine. Thank you very very much, if you took the time to read this.