derealization or dpdr?

Other than my psychosis-like thoughts, I'm not sure if I feel detached from everything or from myself. I see everything as some sort of a lie, and it's not that it doesn't feel "real" since it exists in a way and it has form, but the world rather feels different from what I am. I feel like I am the only one aware, but the body I am is just a body, nothing to do with my consciousness, it happened a lot that "I saw myself from a 3rd person" where I feel like I'm just a consciousness and a form of something that can create thoughts, and I'm somewhere, my body fits "this world" but my consciousness doesn't. Its as if "this world" is a part of "something" something big, or something "I" as a consciousness don't even have the capacity to think of, and that fact scares me, there's so much more "to explore" it wouldn't make sense for only me to not be "real" and that everyone is "real", but take that and put it that this reality exists, I as a consciousness just don't fit into this body living in this world, I could have been "anywhere" else