Need advice(22/M)

Hey guys. How are you all? I remain so confused about my life. Sometimes i feel that i need to read books otherwise i will remain behind in my life and even if i start reading some book i hardly read 3-4 pages and then leave it for later on, which i never do. For example, i started 12 rules of life by Dr.Peterson but i read 3-4 pages and left that hoping to continue afterwards. But later i never resumed that, then i started reading don’t give a fuck by Mark Manson and left that again. I keep repeating this pattern for all the books that i start. Sometimes i am so fascinated by Synchronicities(Carl Jung) so i start book regarding that. Sometimes i start book regarding meditation and leave it like that. My friends tell me that i take my life so serious; now even i have realized the same. I used to feel that i am right whatever i am doing but now i have started feeling that i am fake serious. I even feel that i am a reserved guy; not to be confused with introvert. By reserved i mean to say that i don’t share my deep parts with someone and as a result can’t form deep friendships. I used to be okay before i became fake serious. My friends asks me to chill out sometimes rather than being under the fear of missing something out. I don’t even watch tv a lot. Maybe like 1-3 hours per week. I download and delete snapchat and instagram everyday, i delete it thinking that i serves no purpose to me that will help me in becoming successful. I changed a lot after a girl i liked didn’t accepted me. I came in contact with no more mr . Nice guy book, and i felt that many things were related with me. Suggest me something, how do i get out of this spiral.