Everyone is better at me. At everything.

Sigh. I didn't really expect to post here again, but here we go. Guess no one wants to talk to me anymore, so I ended up here again.

As the title says, everyone I know is better than me, at everything. If they aren't, they just haven't tried. It is really demotivating to a point that it makes my life a living hell and makes things that I once found enoyable (I think) just frustrating and aggrevating.

For example, I used to draw a lot, but somehow everyone I know draws better than me. I've done it for years, put a lot of work and passion in it, and yet everyone who has tried drawing is better than me with ridiculous ease.

Or take SMNC (it's a game). I know a lot of people who play this game, too, many of them have less experience than me, a few more. Doesn't matter, they all outdo me with my main class (Assassin). Doesn't matter that I spent hundreds of hours into playing that class, and another few tens of hours into watching videos and into guides. When my friends "tried" her they were better than me. It's ridiculous. Doesn't only go for Assassin, but it's especially frustrating with her.

Life in general works, too. I am depressive, spend most of my time alone thinking about how shitty my life is. I actually suck at living.

I can continue this list about everything, because there's nothing I'm good at. Not decent. I just fail at everything I do, ruin everything I touch.

I used to have a pretty neat 5 player team to play SMNC with, but they threw me out, because of my attitude. I would make the whole team play worse they told me.

If I go on like this, I might even fail to die. That would be funny.