Please give me the hate I deserve

I'm a failed woman. I do not like children and I am fearful of pregnancy. What a joke I am.

Please tell me how horrible I am.

I'm sorry for existing.

I'm sorry I haven't killed myself yet.

I'm sorry.

I'm trying.

I'm a coward. I should have killed myself years ago.

I'm so sorry. I wish I could do it.

I'm sorry that I'm such a monster.

I'm gonna go walking late tonight and try to get raped. Maybe it will teach me a lesson.