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ScratchFi

Recurring Dream Leads Me to Believe Things Are Not All Good

I need help.

Yesterday I woke up from a rather vivid dream by my alarm. I had met the girl, Julie somehow. There was a strong immediate connection between us despite the fact that we didn't get to interact much. Many things outside our control stopped us from getting to know each-other. A few weeks ago I had a similar dream where I met someone awesome and there were cuddles. Things were going great but then the world was out to get me. Literally. People everywhere screaming, and chasing me down the streets. Everything was going wrong for me.

Now for some backstory/explanation, if you'll bear with me. I just graduated from college as a dual in electrical and mechanical engineering. I rowed crew in the Fall. I'm in a fraternity. The first years of college I was always dismayed how little I could see my friends that I liked the best. Last year I made a conscious choice to focus on my studies because I knew I had a ton of work cut out for me. I 'turned off' being lonely and missing people. Most days I would not interact socially with people. If I wanted to be social I would hang out with my brothers for a couple minutes. I also stopped trying to date during my junior year because the girls at my school were not my type, at all. I should stress that I have a strong belief that I have boundless influence on outcomes in all aspects of my life. The fact that I am okay on the surface but incredibly lonely underneath concerns me. Loneliness seems to randomly spring out in full force. It's rather unnerving. Thoughts? Why are my dreams about the world being out to get me?

Posted Jun 21, 2012, 3:35 PM UTC

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While I'm not an expert on the topic, I have read about dreams like this. I have source amnesia, so I'm sorry I can't seem to find the actual article. It talked about paranoia being the reason everyone is out to get them. Your dream is different, though. You're finally with someone, Julie. You didn't get to interact much with her due to these people. How do you feel about people in general? Specifically, how do you feel when someone interrupts you or your work?

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ScratchFiOP•

I don't like to be interrupted at all! It wasn't just people that were limiting our interactions, it was the very fabric of reality, the dream. I could feel it. I'm going to post a comment on the main thread about what I have learned so far.

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pyrobug0•

Well, it could be that you with you had more close relationships with people, romantic or otherwise. And you might feel like you're being forced to forego them because of outside expectations to do work and succeed in school. Maybe it would be a good idea to set aside some time to socialize and spend with your friends. I know certain fields of study make this really hard to do, but I feel like life can't be all work, and neither can school.

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ScratchFiOP•

I didn't feel that way on the surface but it is absolutely true. My last year of studies was very intense. I usually spent the entire afternoon and evening doing work for my classes then going to bed after midnight only to wake up at 4:45 am for crew. I thought it was my choice to focus on my studies but deep down I didn't feel like I had a choice in the matter. I would not recommend credit overloading with junior/senior level courses.

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Karma_Trooper•

Dreams mean nothing. One side of your brain (the creative side) makes images and the logical side tries to make sense of them, resulting often in a bizzare story

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ScratchFiOP•

I disagree! Usually the story and details mean nothing. However, once I had a dream that had very obvious metaphors for every major issue that was bothering me at the time.

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ScratchFiOP•

UPDATE: I talked with an awesome friend. He helped me puzzle out some things that are going on with me. He saw that I have developed a complete shell/shield for myself to slow my emotional response, filter and handle everything logically. It is unfortunately completely true. I'm a robot. I knew I had been isolating myself but I hadn't realized it was this out of hand. Both are the driving factors for my loneliness. I feel oh-so-fragile right now, but good.

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