DAE experience most (childhood) memories from third person perspective?

I know this is dissociation, and I kinda want a handle on just how weird this is.

I used to have almost no childhood memories. Through EMDR therapy and psychedelic introspection I've recovered a bunch. Many of them are snapshot images or impressions instead of vivid pictured memories. And the vast majority are third person, like a camera above me and about 5 feet behind. I've even tried purposely imagining them from first-person perspective, from my eyes. I'll sort of "zoom in" to it but then immediately "zoom out", it's like part of my brain refuses to acknowledge that girl being me.