🥺 I’m so sorry that you had to go through that
 It just helped so much to get this off my chest and now I can look past all that and focus on getting better I’m glad that you got to the stage where you are looking back on the memories rather than still being there 🙏

I used to suffer from extreme anxiety, to the point of becoming agoraphobic. A stranger at the door was enough to send me into a panic attack. I just want to say that your words capture the feeling I remember all too well. Thank you for reminding me of the past, and I hope you keep writing.

I’m glad that you could relate to that and I know it’s hard cause it goes and come back especially at the worst times… especially since I just had to chance to graduate high school (3 years late cause of my depression I stayed at home for a long time) but finally now I feel better without the pressure of studying forcing the anxiety to come out at the worse times

I have an anxiety disorder and at the beginning of this past school year it was so hard for me to even be in a classroom let alone do work. I think you captured the essence of feeling like you are being strangled by your anxious thoughts. Constant barking in the mind. I love the descriptions you used to portray how you felt on a daily basis.

It means allot that you could relate to this,
thank you for your comment I appreciate it 🙏

I absolutely feel this. It’s the worst when your mind launches war on itself. It’s a powerful piece.

Ah this is so true. Anxiety is unreal and no matter whether it's generalised anxiety or crippling anxiety it's awful.

Very well written and I love your take on it 🖤

Too am I a sufferer of the dreaded anxiety bug. Love the chaos felt in reading this, the continual commas and long lines without break. It really parallels that spiraling feeling of a panic attack.

I also really love the mention of dogs. I hope they are your source of happiness, and something that ground you in the moment. That is what cats are for me, and definitely a candle in the dark as you say, when dealing with the torments of the anxious mind.

Can relate to this big time being bipolar!

This is brilliant! As someone who’s had to battle anxiety and has had a couple of episodes myself, I greatly appreciate the detail in which you convey that feeling.

I can really feel the emotion in this piece. The rhyming is really clever and it makes the piece really strike emotion from the reader as well. I can also relate heavily to this, which makes it really hit home for me. Thank you for sharing!

My girlfriend suffers from extreme anxiety when meeting new people when reading this I felt like I got a little more into her head when you said "Ones mind is its worst enemy"

Anxiety, the endless battle people face in silence.


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this is really good, but i thi k it would benefit from the lines being spaced out instead of this paragraph looking style, i think it would be easier for my adhd brain to read. really great stuff either way

Thanks for taking time to reply I love to hear people’s perspective and feedback, 
The line about the candle was about; how when you leave the candle on for so long that you can’t breathe anymore and so you just remembered that the windows are closed and the candle is still burning; how you wish your mind had windows to drown out the anxiety (sort of if that makes sense)

That’s a good poem and the imagery is good but it’s hard to follow for me because of it being in a paragraph format 
-I reach out a hand appears to rescue me but I live in torture- I’ve seen this in my head so many times it has me forcing myself to avoid it at all costs except I’m the one reaching out to others. 
-I rip them open just to breathe, I feel a sound way beneath my haunted dreams? I’m trying to understand what this could mean it leaves me confused because I can’t picture much it just sounds good. I do the same thing sometimes. I feel like this part is kind of a cry for attention.(a cry for attention isn’t bad especially in poetry) Not trying to offend It’s just from my POV. 
-not knowing is worse than knowing- for me it’s knowing is the harder part because I can’t prevent and it happens anyways… 
I have anxiety too and it gets to me sometimes also. So it’s super relatable especially the part where I hold a candle to suffocate my mind but it goes back into the so why is it ha

I reach out, a hand appears to rescue me,
But I live in torture, loose wires in my mind, I rip them open just to breathe,
I feel a sound, way beneath my haunted dreams,

The fear creeps up on me, but only when Im weak;

Not knowing is worse than knowing,

Cause One’s mind is its worst enemy, 

A torture for eternity,
I hold a candle, to suffocate my mind with me,

Cause it’s been so hard to handle, all that is happening,

But I feed off of disasters, so why is it hard to breathe,

Oh I forgot it’s the candle, I locked the doors of memories hounding me,

The dogs are a laughter, compared to the barks that my mind release,

The patterns are mastered, they drive my mind out of me.

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